A short moan

When I was 17 I decided not to learn to drive because I was too afraid to be in control of something that could kill someone by an error of mine. I had nightmares. When I wa764d6c860dcfd3a33f767b8157ec034as 23 I started to learn and hated it. Luckily I moved to London so never had to get as far as my tests. Then, when I moved back to London I was too anorexic (you’re no allowed to drive under a certain BMI) and then when I was better, I was too afraid, not to mention not earning enough money, to try again. Mental Health Issues can be a very persuasive argument against not pushing yourself to do scary things…

Now, that aside, every time I go for one of my Schema Therapy sessions it costs me £20 for the round trip – train and taxi (the alternative is train and three buses). That’s £40 a week which I am not allowed to claim back because I work part time and don’t claim benefits. I am not allowed any financial help, despite this time consuming treatment.

Honestly, do they (the mythical “they” being the Governemnt, I suppose) want people to wallow in mental health or actually try to function in the world? It makes me so angry!

Rant over.

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One thought on “A short moan

  1. You’re right, that’s rubbish. It’s like being penalised to access and engage in treatment and that stinks!
    As for driving, I was also terrified by the concept and had nightmares where I did something awful whilst driving (still do sometimes) but the torture of learning has been totally worth it and I now love it. It gives me freedom and independence, and I still feel a ridiculous amount of pride/ disbelief over the fact I can actually drive a car!

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